Less than a year after the tragic car crash that killed Johnny and Matthew Gaudreau near their hometown in Salem County, the hockey legends’ families are preparing for their first Father’s Day without them.

Meredith Gaudreau remembers everything about her and Johnny Gaudreau’s relationship. In an essay written directly to her late husband in honor of Father’s Day, Meredith—who shares three kids with the late hockey star—walked through the most important moments of their time together.

Almost a year after the brothers were killed last August, when an alleged drunk driver crashed into them while they were riding bicycles the day before their sister Katie Gaudreau's wedding, Meredith Gaudreau penned an emotional personal essay addressed to her late husband.